It's been a long time since I last wrote in here. I'm waking up from a long sleep brought on by the sorrow of losing my dear Tom. I continue to live, to do the things I normally do and to put on a happy face, but for a long time, everything got done out of both habit and perseverance. My children and family members, including Tom's family, have held me up by just loving me. My favorite philosopher said, "When you are sorrowful look again in your heart, and you shall see that in truth you are weeping for that which has been your delight" ~Kahlil Gibran.
Tom was my delight and left me both sorrowful and yet with joy in my heart for having spent a short part of my life with him. His encouragement led me to finish college and to go on to finish my master's degree in Communications. Because I am here and can no longer be with Tom, I realize that I need to do the work I am meant to do. Tom, I can't say it any better than this quote: "As long as I can I will look at this world for both of us. As long as I can I will laugh with the birds, I will sing with the flowers, I will pray to the stars, for both of us" ~Sascha, as posted on motivateus.com.
Speaking of angels, I have learned of a new way of communicating with them. I didn't even know we could communicate with angels other than to pray to them and hope for the best. When I decided to pursue an early retirement earlier in March of this year, I started to get strange messages on my office calculator! No, I have not lost my mind. My little calculator sits on my desk and every morning I notice that it turns on or something when the sun hits the solar panel. The numbers are random and usually threes, ones or zeros. I hit the clear button when I see it and forget about it. One morning the numbers were all the same and across the screen: 44444444. What the... I remembered a friend telling me one time that the 4's were a sign of the angels, so I looked it up immediately. I found a number of websites all saying the same thing: the angels were trying to get my attention because they had messages for me. I settled on one easy to use website called, http://www.sacredscribes.net/angelnumbersequences.htm. Almost every morning now I get numbers in different orders. Some mornings I get no numbers at all. Here is a synopsis of what I've experienced so far.
Threes represent finding one's balance. Now I know that threes were appearing because my angels knew I was searching for balance in my life. When I made the decision to retire early to babysit for my grandchildren and do things I've wanted to do for a long time. On the day I saw all fours across the screen, the angels finally got my attention and I started paying attention to the numbers on the screen daily.
On April 3rd the numbers were: 55.555555 and on the 5th they were: 1.1111113. On the 13th they were 111,111.11 and by the 16th they read -0.0000003. That scary negative number appeared again on the 20th and between the 16th and the 20th, the calculator never even turned on. On April 24th I had no money in my account and the account was actually negative $220! I did go to my bank with some funds I had in a small savings account in another bank and asked them to remove the three $34 charges, which they did.
By the 26th the number was 66668686. I looked that up and according to Joanne at the above website address it means:
